pedas!

huhu... my mum balik td muntah2...adui...kesiannye...ingtkan nak ade adik br...tp bile fikir balik die tgh period...huhuh..xkan la... mmg 1 hour gak die muntah2... kasi la ubat tahan muntah yang beli mmg ade dalam beg...but still gak...huhu..dgr my mum muntah2.. macam berjankit plak..huhuhu..mual2...loya2...tidak!!! sabor...tarik nafas..
kesian kat mak.. hr ni my turn pulak masak... keluarkan ape2 je dalam peti sejuk...last2..yang masak..ikan patin masak asam pedas... ikan lundu masak rebus...n cucur udang+jagung...huhuh..cucur ok...tp lauk2..sume pedas2...my sis tukang rase coz xpuasa...huhuh.. sedih la... ntah nape sume pedas2...maybe sbb lame x masak kot...haish....last2..suruh abah beli lauk dah siap masak kat bazaar..untuk adik e n abang..huhuh....now dalam bilik wif my mum...br je lepas solat...urut2 kaki ckit...now dah ok..huhuh...sedih tgk mak lemah sgt2...die tdo dlm bilik i coz xnak adik mimie kene jangkit..huhu..hope x lah... now..nak siapkan asmgmnt...melambak kene siapkan..caiyok2... alhamdulillah...td pagi kurang sihat...lps tgk mak muntah2...trs je baik...kuasa ALLAH kan...xyah makan ubat! yes!eheehe...salam

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d emptiness dat i feel bring me again 2 my blog.. not worrying bout others reading it makes me xpressing myself again.. d sorrow n d pain is shadowing me now...laying on my bed..juz like dead body make me feel miserable.. how suck my life is.. am i afraid wif my own life.. yes i am... i dont wanna noe bout my future..coz i dont think i hv 1 anymore..juz follow d flow.. my head spinning around... my stomach fell like being cut alive.. shit...its hurt.. i cant take my pain killer n i dont think its work.. juz miss d grenny so much... dis morning i dream bout arwah... al fatihah 2 him.. thinking of him make me cry like a baby.. d happiness dat he brings 4 me last time.. still fresh in my memory... d 1 n only A.. in his flight now.. pray d best for him.. wonder y he not sms or call b4 he fly... maybe he call his gf.. yeah maybe.. dont noe... its aida bday 2day...got no plan.. my boss asking me out 2 dinner.. i untill now i didnt reply his call or sms...gth... 2day..juz 1 2 rest...thinking bout nothing...can i??? yeah...juz hopping... im tired..da..

andai ku tahu..

1st time aku buat 2 blog 1 hari... sebab... ntah.. masuk je ofis hr ni...aku diam jer... boss suruh duduk dalam bilik die 1 hari...doing nothing...how stupid is dat..? aku dok menatap pc..die dok semak all d files... byk kali ckp nak g lower court..jenguk meja..tp die x izinkan... die nak aku stay dalam chamber...bosan!!!!!!!!
aku dok sofa...bca magazine sampai tertido2... adui...malunye...bangun je dah almost 4pm.. g solat jab... nasib baik chamber boss n surau x jauh...bangun je dr sofa...gosh..headache!!! sakit sgt2...now..mcm nak muntah... tp terpaksa tahan sbb dpn boss... bile die tgk aku nak ke surau..die pun ikut gak...huhuh...run!!!1 xtahan... nasib baik sempat ke toilet...huhuhu..pening...10min dok dlm toilet...nasib baik toilet bersih...huhuhu...hairan..kadang2 fikir...ntah ape yg my mum fikir kalau die nampak muntah2 mcm ni..tp yang pelik kat umah jarang plak muntah..huhuh...beratnye kepala.. ambik wuduq n solat...hampir2 je pitam lepas rukuk yang terakhir.. what's happening 2 me??? now i need 2 ask d doctor...menyesal x bawak result xray 2 doc...huhu...next friday maybe... lepas solat dok kejap..fikir pasal A...risau sbb besok die dah ke KK.. rumah x dapat g... n 2nite his gf mesti sedih kan... adui..kesiannya.. jelez...yes i am...but what 2 do.... ppuan x baik mcm i..macam ni la nasib...kuar je dr pintu surau...boss dah tunggu... marah2...ty apesal lame sgt dalam surau...argh!! malas nak layan...dah la otak pening...nak melayan perangai selfish die 2..arhgh...darn... jalan je trs ke chamber..ambik beg n chow...but he pull my beg...sampai terduduk i terjatuh mcm nagka busuk...hate him..huhuh..sakit perut!!!!!!!!!!! mamat sengal ni x tau ke aku ni sakit br lpas disiat2 perut ni...arghhhhh....sengal!! sorry byk mane pun aku yang rasa skt..bukan enko la bangang...sorry...i hate him!!1 huhuhu...sakit giler... malas nak layan..ambik beg n lari je trs..kebetulan abang dah tunggu n balik...huhuh...sakit perut yang teramat...dugaan!!!!!...abang ajak g bazaar..ikut je walau payah sgt rsnye nak bejalan..huhuhu..lepas balik tgk nenek jap..alhamdulillah...nak gak die makan hr ni...kiss her...muah...love ya sexy granny...huhuh... buke simple jer..makan martabak n cola...huhuh... now...im sleepy n xtrmly tired... miss A.. but ntah... bende yang dicakap mr M last n8 keep playing in my head..huhuh...tuhan tunjukkan la aku jalan...amin... perut no otak sakit.. 2biji pain killer telan pun dah xde kesan...dulu ade eheem2..cenang ckit la..xlarat...nak tido... huhuuuhu...juz received msg from nyamuk...bgs la die dah janji xkan bc blog ni agi.. now tenang ckitlah.. xde la A cbuk2 ty g... love him...ya...but...hurmmmm... kepala ku pusing!!! xmo masuk hptl g!!! t blow selalu ckp...mati lagi bagus dahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... setutu sgt2... nite2...gonna sleep early 2nite...hope masih bernafas pagi esok...da...salam

thinking of u

sakit kepala dah almost one week.. after xcident dat day...wondering y asyik muntah2.. tapi alhamdulillah still leh puasa...decided go 2 c doctor... ade bengkak ckit kat dahi.. then he asked me 2 go 2 lab n xray... ntah.. after dapat je result... xde rs pun nak g jumpe balik doc.. juz go back... nak rest n tdo... otak penat sgt2... kalau leh nak tidor je sepanjang hari... dah smpi umah.. boss called... so kene g ofis.. dah sampai ofis... xde bende pun nak wat actually.. die saje je nak jumpe... what d f*** it dat??? lately selalu tol wat hal... last nite i off hp pun die nak marah nape??? what's wrong wif da guy???? die nak wat ape jer kat i sk hati die jer.. annoying tol.. now we talk bout nyamuk... dat ass****.. he read my blog all dis while... same wif my sis... x sk! x sk! i noe blog ni bukan private sgt2... but i buat blog ni xde sape pun tau.. kecuali bloggers yang visit la kan... but xde sape yang kenal i tau pasal blog ni kecuali sorang... shit men... but i dah ckp kat both of them... n im begging them not 2 interupt me anymore... give me sum space plezzzzzzz.. nyamuk plak inform kat A pasal my blog.. nasib baik die x tau...die just noe my id... A.. besok dah fly 2 KK... hope die happy wif his new life kat sana...n jumpe makwe2 yang lagi cun dr i... i love him so much... but i dont noe y loving him bring so much pain... last nite he cant online ofter hours waiting... sedih.. then die terpaksa kwn2 die.. but i dont blame him... juz wondering y die baik sgt 2 3 hari ni... n when im think bout him.. i fell so guilty wif his gf.. she's nice... pki tudung orang nye... padan... now... feels like crying...
i risau pasal fracture... my body dah x larat nak handle any new sickness...
last nite i chat dgn M... he gave me a lot of advice bout my relationship... its makes me think a lot... as a friend... he is a good listener... bertuah tunang die...
gosh... now im alone at d office... doing nothing bout reading stupid case...
miss A... Miss A... Miss A... huhuhu.... sejuk... now i feel cold plak... demam ker??? sejuk panas jer badan ni... hope dugaan hari ni x seteruk hari2 sudah... people around me vry hard 2 handle... my life juz lika a drama.. ups n down... love..friendship... pain... die... huhuhu.....n im lonely...
hmmm.... x sk my boss... keep looking at me like wanna eat me alive... org nak balik x kasi... dok kat ofis like stupido blh plak......... arggggggggggggggggggggg.......
keep thinking bout him... huhuhuhuhuhuhu... sedih jer... nak nagis leh x?????

lol

A called me after subuh tadi... dont noe...ingtkan dah xde kaitan dah dengan die..huhu... mengaku dat i miss him like hell...but...adui...he's kinna noty 2day...almost "swimming" gak..darn...
tgh hari die ajak ym plak...huhuh...im kinna blur..x faham...y both of us pretend nothing happen...y i still gak layan die..adui...what's wrong wif me??? bile ingt balik ape yang jadik malam 2... gosh...if he noe bout dat...he's gonna kill me... i buat sume tuk die..i x rela pun.. but dat asshole such a liar... naif sgt ke aku ni smpi senang ditipu..? and another silly mistake ive done...my bday present...why im aggreed wif his plan??? what im i thinking?????????????? am i gonna do it??? y dis happening??? balas dendam ker??? tp yang makin malang is me...ntah2 dia happy dgn gf die..td die ckp sedih...nak out from KL dah...sedih nak tglkan gf...what bout me???? x fikir ker??? i hate it when he talk bout his gf..
td mase solat..ntah..aku sujudkan doakan agar menjadi isterinya...but y dada sebak jer..sedih..dalam sujud ku menangis... hanya padaMu ku berserah...
pening ckit...semalam g beli barang2 untuk adik n yuyun...2x almost xcident...sakit kepala terhantok kat depan keta..adui...panic tahap gaban...untill now denyut2 jer..pagi semalam bangun2 dah muntah..kepala pusing2...nak g klinik x??? juz ade bengkak...no bleeding...should be ok la..biar la...11.9 nak g hospital..my doc sure gonna mad at me...but..biar la...huhuhuhu
br je lps berbuka.. xde selera nak makan nasi...minum jer banyak...kembong dah perutni..huhuhuhuh....jap g nak tdo kot...mak ai awal nye...bukan keje pun...
huhuh..btw...br je sent surat tranfser 2 K.l...hope diluluskan ketua jabatan..plz tuan b...approve kan my 2nd application...huhuh... tired dah keje kat cni..
i wanna new life... n mum..kalau sape2 yang masuk meminang...juz setuju jer...redha..huhuh..sob2...

(p/s: hehehe...funny...kimie dok sebelah...acting like my boss..wif big glass n pretend typing something...)hehehe...he's so cute...makin berisi jer...love him so much..
k cya..da